Today is Saturday, Oct. 7 2006. The Day we've been waiting for...the day in where I will finally know the truth about how things will gonna be. After doing some of the stuffs, making things easy, understanding things...hoping for something...and wishing for some consideration... here i am  ( sigh ... ) ...2:41pm, Sitting in front of my computer... alone....and trying to make myself busy and forget about whats with this day. I really wanna join the party but it seems that i just cant. There are things thats holding me on from going out and attending the party. I wanna see how happy the celebrant may be this day, for this has been planned well and really hoping for success...but the celebrant has choosen another important person. Person i dont wanna see and either meet in person for only hearing the name irritates me already. I'am sorry for such an attitude...i dont really have the right to feel this way and be mad at this person for i had never met this person ever and know personally...But maybe this is the way how it goes! Honestly, i dont feel bad at this person anymore...i dont really have to pay attention on her...i dont even have to talk to her...or smile at her...or give her a wink...and etc...i can always be me!!! Do things i like to do. Treat the person whatever i want to... make her day un easy... damn!!!! i am really bad!!! but i decided not to meet her...for this is a competition for me...and i know in anytime...anyday...anywhere...i will never ever win. I hate this feeling! The feeling of being a LOOSER...

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October 06, 2006
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