This is it! the day i have been waiting for after a couple of months being free...free to do everything i wanna do!. This is the day in where i have to put myself again in a ward but this time...not for 2 months but much longer. I just hope i can make it...and be able to manage my character or behaviour for the period of 4 to 6 months.I'am not really supposed to feel this way but its like that i will be in prison and all the things that i used to do and things that makes me feel happy will be freeze for a while. No more Gigs, No more alcohol, no more yosi ( cigarette ), no more party, no more chat friends, no more overnight phonecalls ( telebabad ), no more sleep overs....I'll defenitly miss all those stuffs but there is nothing really i can do about it...but to accept it and be with it.I just wish that its better this time, Not just the boring and typical one.Got no choice but to enjoy the moment, each time we have to go to thier house in _______.... though i am not the orocan type of person, i have to be... and its making me really sick! ( sigh... ) This is it! i have to accept it! i have to go with the flow.

Original Date Posted :    October 24, 2006