February 27, 2009
 Today, early 12 in the
morning...October 18, 2006...it's my 30th Birthday and i'am actually
celebrating it with Friendster!!! hahahah...It is really funny is'nt it?
Actually i had talked to same of my friends on the phone and some of them had
sung me a Happy Birthday Song already. But after a while, of course they have
to take a rest and put down the phone though i know they really want to wait
til 12am to be the first to greet me on the exact day of my birthday. But
honestly....Friends, i do understand you!!! and i really wanna thank you all
for greeting me and remembering my birthday and spending some time with me.
Anyways, What are the things that i did the day before my birthday which
is October 17...Ok! Early morning, i cooked Lunch...then went to the market and
buy stuffs for Pancit canton and other menu inwhich i am planning to cook for
tomorrow; so in case somebody came to celebrate my special day...i can offer
something. Then, I picked up chang in school and went home and make a reviewer
for him...then eat lunch and reviewed chang then do a little Siesta. Woke up
around 5:30 and took merienda...Then cooked dish for dinner. After a while i
went up stair and talked to a friend again. Convincing me to go out and have a
gig but i don't know...maybe something is wrong with me because I DONT WANT TO
GO OUT!!! hahah!!! Maybe i am SICK!!!! Ate dinner...went to the Bathroom
and took a shower then watched Atlantika and Bakekang...then i opened my
Notebook and went to Friendster. At first, i was just browsing for other
peoples account...reading thier Blogs ... and now i'am here...end up writing my
own blog. Nothing really special about this blog i am writing right now.I just
wanna write down the things i did and things i am planning to do for my bday.
Share it with you....with those people i love who could not join me and be with
me in this special momentum of my life. Last year, i had wished for
something...and while i'am thinking of what to wish and ask for as a birthday
wish... i realized that the wish i asked last year had actually came true. And
its really great isn’t it? And because
of that, i wanna make a Birthday Resolution....and i hope i can manage to
accomplish and do all those things. Tomorrow, i'am going to Baclaran
Church and go home and cook the Pancit Canton and other dishes. Wait for people
who would like to come and join me and spare me some of their time. OMG!!! i am
actually 30 now!!! But its ok...i don't care if i got old...as long as i dont
look old as my age does!!! heheheh....just hoping!!! kidding aside, its does'nt
matter if i am old...what matters to me is the experiences and the things i
learned and my achievements in life. " Happy Birthday" to me.....
Original Date Posted
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October 18, 2006
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Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Occassion
February 27, 2009
 Today is Saturday, Oct. 7
2006. The Day we've been waiting for...the day in where I will finally know the
truth about how things will gonna be. After doing some of the stuffs, making
things easy, understanding things...hoping for something...and wishing for some
consideration... here i am ( sigh ... ) ...2:41pm, Sitting in front of my
computer... alone....and trying to make myself busy and forget about whats with
this day. I really wanna join the party but it seems that i just cant. There
are things thats holding me on from going out and attending the party. I wanna
see how happy the celebrant may be this day, for this has been planned well and
really hoping for success...but the celebrant has choosen another important
person. Person i dont wanna see and either meet in person for only hearing the
name irritates me already. I'am sorry for such an attitude...i dont really have
the right to feel this way and be mad at this person for i had never met this
person ever and know personally...But maybe this is the way how it goes!
Honestly, i dont feel bad at this person anymore...i dont really have to pay
attention on her...i dont even have to talk to her...or smile at her...or give
her a wink...and etc...i can always be me!!! Do things i like to do. Treat the
person whatever i want to... make her day un easy... damn!!!! i am really
bad!!! but i decided not to meet her...for this is a competition for me...and i
know in anytime...anyday...anywhere...i will never ever win. I hate this
feeling! The feeling of being a LOOSER...
Original Date Posted
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October
06, 2006
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Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Hate
February 27, 2009
 I went out with friends last night. We went to a bar somewhere
in manila. Drink some beer and puff some cigarette. Went home by 4am and got
sleep til 12pm. Woke up and went to the kitchen to get some coffee and have
some lunch. After that, i call my friend Eloisa whom i am with last night and
talked about funny things we have done. Then i spent little time bonding with
charles. Talked about things he have done in school. Things he wanted to do for
the whole day. He sung a song from school which his teacher taught them. Then a
friend ring me and have chat with some things! Things about what had happened
last night with my gimik, my friend's plan for Saturday coz it is his birthday
party. I supposed to help him cook but he told me he changed his mind and he
just asked me to come and be his guest. Discussed about some little topic. Then
after that i decided to open my PC and connect to the internet....directly to
friendster...i want to write a blog...i want to write something...but it seems
that i am hanging in the air and got nothing to write...can't have a topic to
write on. Its like i am lost! something is missing!?! something is wrong...and
have to make it right. I've been too easy this past few months of my life.
Everytime i feel alone and nothing to do and bored and angry ... the first
thing i always want to do is go out and have a party with my friends. I almost
forgot some real important things in my life that i have to priorities. That i
have someone just right here beside me that i can go out with and talk with and
bond with everytime i feel lonely. I feel so guilty that he's always there to
make me feel that he loves me and he's there...just waiting for me to have time
for him. Waiting for his turn. I have ignored him unconsciously! It's not that
i don't love him nor care for him...but i just thought that he is not yet
capable to understand me. But i was wrong! at his very young age, he adjust
everything for me. Everytime i want to go out...he allows me to! everytime i
dont want to talk to him...he will just go and play with his toys and playmates
or talk to his nanny. I'll just gave him toys, food that he wants to eat and
etc...But eventhough i'am like this to him, he's still the same with
me...nothing change with his attitude and character...he still loves me, care
for me and so sweet to me. Now i realized everything! i have finally woke up
from a long sleep and decided to make it up to him! To try my best to bring
back all the time and attention that i must give him. I don't wan't to promise
anything, for promises are made to be broken! instead i wan't my speak be much
louder than words and do everything and adjust for him... like how he adjust
his life for me. I want to say sorry for everything...for all the time that he
wanted me to be on his side...for all the time he wants to talk to me...for all
the time that he wants to play with me...for the Love and care that i have
missed to let and make him feel. I am sorry and i hope that this time...i will
never again be fall asleep so that i can make him more happy and make him feel
that i do love him so much! That nothing else in this world can replace his big
part on me.
Original Date Posted :
October 05, 2006
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Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Family
February 27, 2009
 Yellow Fever
is an infectious tropical disease caused by a virus transmitted by the bite of
a certain mosquito that sometimes kills a human. Just like Love ... it is an
infectious tropical feelings caused by emotions and longingness transmitted by
the bite of a certain person and that sometimes kills a human. Infectious
tropical feelings...it leads us to do things that we don't normally do such us
Giving more and receiving less. Jealousy, Je-june or childishness, Stubborn,
Insecurity and sometimes being Martyr. Those were the feelings or emotions nor
character that we hate most yet unconsciously what people see on us every time
we fall in love. Emotions and Longingness as the virus because it is exactly
what's holding on to people from its own depression and facing the truth. From
what's keeping us loving and keeping the person yet we don't get the same in
return. A bite of a certain person or MOSQUITO! bite because, though he or she
know that things might hurt you...yet makes him or her more happy...they would
rather hurt you or bite you just for their own happiness. Love...it is true
that love kills most of us. Kills us because those person we love sometimes
don't care whether we love them or we care for them or want to keep them or
just to be with them... Why is it sometimes... though we're no longer happy
with the situation we're still there and trying to do things work out? though
it's hurting us so bad? though he/she love somebody else, you'd rather take the
pain just to see, be with and continue loving the person you love.
Funny...Yes!!! it is really funny. Is Love really blind or it is really a virus
that no matter what how we prevent ourselves from it...it will all be useless.
Because you just have to take it...and accept it...and be with it. And let all
the medicine and time heals the pain.
Original Date
Posted : September 21, 2006
Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Love
February 27, 2009
 Why is it
always hard to let go of someone who never fail to make you smile and laugh
most of the time? Why do we always have to feel the weight, the pain...the
loneliness. Why does it always have to take much of our time to move on and
forget everything that in real...hurts us most? Why do we have to meet someone
when we are not really sure will be there for the rest of our lives? Why is it
actually we have to get in touched with someone who is later on will leave us?
Why do you have to love someone when you are not sure you'll get the same in
return. And finally, why is it somebody or someone has to leave someone!!!!
Does this thing makes them happy? Makes them more important? much wanted? I
don't know...maybe I’m saying this because i hate leaving...I hate when someone
leaves me...and i don't leave any of the person i love. When people say
"IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE SET THEM FREE FOR WHEN IT COMES BACK TO YOU...IT IS
REALLY MEANT FOR YOU...AND IF IT DOES"NT, MAYBE IT IS NEVER REALLY MEANT
TO BE YOURS!" i always end up having a discussion with those people. I
don't believe with that sayings...because if you really love someone, you have
to fight for it! You have to do anything just to have him/her! You have to
prove that you do really love him/her. Right! for me love is selfish! There is
no UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!! we only got that kind of love from our Mother...but i
was wrong. I never thought Unconditional Love do exist! and setting free of
someone you love is something that would really hurt you but will give joy and
happiness to that someone you love and it does give much of your love because
you give him/her the freedom...freedom to search someone he/she really
needed...really looking for! and someone he/she deserves to be with. It is
really painful, but facing all those pain will give you strength later on. And
it is something that would make us a better and stronger person. It will just
have to take some time for us to really recover from that dilemma of heart. But
there is one thing i have learned...that LEAVING doesn’t always mean he/she
doesn’t LOVE you, sometimes it is because he/she Loves you much or more than
you know...or you can give to him/her! It is all case to case basis...and you
just have to really study the situation for you to find all the answers and
come up with a better decision. So, whether Leaving or continue Loving...its
just the same...both of them can hurt us. It's just us who can decide better
for ourselves. So tell me??? would you rather love someone and to be hurt
continuously OR leave...and be hurt for a while?
Original
Date Posted : September 18, 2008
Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Hate
February 27, 2009
 Yesterday
was the worst day of my life in chat world. I have been into a situation that
was never supposed to happened. It does changed everything. From the image i
have managed for over 3 years has been changed. The friends i have known and
gained...i think i lost them now. Maybe not all of them ... but some of them.
It's a matter of mis communication and mis interpretation. It really made me
feel bad and sick the whole day yesterday and until today. I am still carrying
the pain and weight of what had happened last day. If i could just turned back
the hands of time, maybe i should have not do some things that would make my
life like this. I am so afraid to loose my friends, those memories they have
given me and we have shared. But maybe this is it...the time has come for me to
change my life into something that i have been thinking for along time now.
Maybe it's true that things do come when they are really meant to... And God
gave me this kind of situation to think, decide and choose. Whether to stay or
not. To change my life or stick with this for life. To concentrate my mind and
heart with things and people i should or with this people who i consider my
friends...Real friends...yet judge me unlawfully. I can't blame them but at
least they should have tried to know the truth. I don't wan't to loose my friends here that i have
had for years...i love them all but i guess ... i have to move on. I want to
thank all of the people who treat me and consider me as their friends. For letting
me in to their lives. For all the memories. For all the knowledge and
experience you have given and shared into my life. Thanx....
Original date posted : September 14, 2006
Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Hate
February 27, 2009
 Do you always
care to PlEaSe everybody? or you don't really care whatever they think
of what you are doing? It is always a problem with me. I always want to
PleAse everybody. I always wan't them to see the best in me that
sometimes turns into wry. Sometimes when i feel like doing things for
myself they disapprove. Giving comments like it doesn't fit with me
anymore or i should have not do things like that and etc. I wan't you
to love me and always like me...but why i can't let you see the real
me? the things that makes me wan't to see myself? or is it that you
just wan't to see what you wan't to see in me? Yes...i understand that
friends do comment because they care. But what i don't understand is
that they just see the bad side and not the good with what i have done.
So, is it just i can't really be me? in able for me to please my
friends.....people around me. But it's me!!! this is all i can be...and
i love being me!
Original Date Posted :
August 30, 2006
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Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Thoughts
February 27, 2009
 HAPPY...
according to most dictionaries the word HAPPY is glad, content;
luckily, fortunate; Happily, Happiness (Webster's Dictionary)
How can you
really tell if you are HAPPY?!?!?! Most of the time i ask myself if i
am Happy! Am i really Happy or just pretending to be happy?
I have a loving Husband who works very hard for me and his son. Enable him to give us a very FORTUNATE
and worry free life. Who loves me and cherish me. Sometimes we fight
with reasonable and unreasonable fact. But its all part of married
life. A son who looks very much like his father that i always love to
stair with. From the type of hair to the style of finger nails. A very
intelligent kid. Sweet, that always kiss me and hug me everyday.
Understanding, that eventhough i spank him sometimes...he understands
why i do that to him and love me still. A life that is not too
difficult but yes!!! sometimes conflicated...i can say that it is
fruitful. We have been granted by so many blessings from God. I am so GLAD
to have my Dad, Mom and brothers who supports me emotionally and
spiritually. Friends that i can always count on in times of loneliness,
trouble and most of the time...gigs. I don't own a house, i don't have
my own car and business. We were just renting a house for almost two
(2) years now. We ride jeepney and tricycle/pedicab. But we have never
run out of food. My son is presently studying in one of the catholic
school here in our area. I don't have much money...but luckily, we
survive! every single day of our lives...we LUCKILY survive! I am not rich nor poor! and Yes...i can say that i 'am CONTENTED with what i have right now.
So, is there
any reason why i should say that i am not Happy? i have all of it's
meaning. I'am Fotunate. I'am Glad. Lucky and Contented. Plus...i'am
Blessed for i have my family, friends and God with me.
You? are you HAPPY?!?!?!?!?
Original Date Posted :
August 29, 2006 Link Posted :
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Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Thoughts
February 27, 2009
 Madalas naiisip ko...bakit
ang tao talagang walang ka kuntentuhan sa buhay.Meron dyan,binata.May magandang
trabaho.May pinag aralan.Bakit mas pinipili pa minsan yung babaeng may asawa
na.Meron naman,Dalaga. Maganda.Sexy.Ma appeal.Pero mas enjoy sa lalakeng me
asawa.Si mister, may magandang asawa,magagandang anak,matatalino at may
magandang trabaho...pero niloloko si misis para sa isang dalagang di ko alam
kung tanga.Si misis,may napaka gwapong asawa,Mapera,pang artistang
anak,matalino at maipagmamalaki.Pero sa likod ni mister...may ginagawa din
pala.Ang gulo ng buhay no?ang hirap intindihin.Saan nga ba talaga sasaya ang
isang tao? ikaw? san ka ba masaya? share mo naman.....
Original Date
Posted : June 29, 2006
Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Thoughts
February 27, 2009
A lot of times my mother
told me that i am such a pain in her neck!I never bother to ask why 'coz i
already know why. I do things that she don't want me to do. I dress like a boy
when i was a little girl. I played toy gun with my brothers instead of dolls
with other girls. I act like a boy. I even used to stole money from my Mothers
wallet. I dont like doing thing around the house. When i was in high school, i
go cutting classes with my classmates. Smoke at the back of our school
building. Have fought with my teachers in Values Education, Science & my
own advicer. Had my first boy friend during my 2nd year with the guy whom my
mother dont like ( in fairness to him...he is such a nice guy! ) My Mother want
me to be a nurse, but since i am an inborn obstinate...i took Foreign Service.
From 4 years course to 5 years!!! Instead of attending Natural Sciences class
which is 8 session in a month ( FTR... i only attend once a week. So thats 4 times
a month! ) ... I 'd rather go to my friends house and drink beer. Though I was
caught by my Mother smoking or with cigarette inside my bag ) for several
times, i never quite or stop from doing so! I remember when my father ask me
what benefits i gain from smoking? and if i can give him 1 good reason why he
should allow me to smoke. There was no voice came out! i really to want to
answer him...but i just don’t have enough strength. So, he told me to stop
smoking. But its already in my system...so i continue smoking and keep on lying
with my parents. After 5 long years in collage, i have finally graduated and
start looking for a job ( knowing that my Father has its very own Business! ) I
worked with different companies with different positions with different
salaries. But i never gave my mother a cent. And its just now i have realized
how bad i was! Was there a moment that i made my mother proud of me? Did i even
made her smile? I don’t know! The only thing i know is that...I had never been
a good daughter to my Parents. I just wish that one day...i could be the
daughter that they've been looking for. But the question is....HOW? If i had
never even told them that I LOVE them! If i had never let them feel that i do
LOVE them? A lot of times i tried to tell them especially my Mom how I LOVE
her...but whenever there is a chance, i just see myself standing and staring at
her. I was always afraid of showing them and letting them know how I DO LOVE
THEM SO MUCH! They see me as a very strong woman. Full of Strength. But what
they don’t see is that, in spite of how old i am right now...i am still their
Only Daughter who always seek for their Love and attention. Its just i cant
tell them. But i want them to know that I love them so much and i really do
missed them a a lot. Original Date Posted ; August 15, 2006
Posted by Sheleilla Moreno. Posted In : Childhood
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About Me
I'm a very simple person and just like any other girl, i love shoes, bags, clothes,wallets and etc. I love collecting flowers, bag and slippers. I read book when i don't have anything to do...chicken soup for the soul in particular. I love cooking so much specially for my family. Cooking is my first love. I am also into chat and i've started since 2002. Successfully, i have met a lot of friends there and been able to mingle with different kinds of people. A very sentimental type of person and a true friend. When i feel lonely, sometimes i go out with friends but most of the time i just sit in front of my computer and write about how i feel. That's why i decided to have this page so that i can share it with others...have opinion from other people and at the same time give advices to those who needs one.
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