There are things in life
happens inwhere it is not really what we are expecting to...hoping
for....and asking for. And the worst, bad things happened with the
least person we do expect to hurt us. Sometimes i am thinking that
maybe we are just expecting too much that we just don't expect them or
a certain person will gonna hurt us badly. Mentally and Physically
speaking. One time, i saw myself sitting at the corner of my
bed...thinking...i know i am thinking of something but i don't know
what it is. My mind seems to be blank and searching for something. I
have felt a pain at the other half of my chest...seems to be my heart
is crying. Bleeding. I hear my heart says, why don't you just leave and
start all over again...a new life. But my brain told me NOT TO!!! That
have to work for it for my family. I don't really know who am i going
to follow...is it what my brain is telling me or my heart who feels
every pain...searching for love and the one who is really capable of
seing who really cares for me, who trully loves me and who really need
me. It is really one tough decision i have to make. But for now, i
guess i have to stay for a while. Wait for the sign. And let the time
takes me to where i have to be. I just hope that God give me more
strength and patience to handle all this missery and pain i am dealing
with right now. I know i can make it!!! I hope.
Original Date Posted : November 13, 2006
