Yesterday
was the worst day of my life in chat world. I have been into a situation that
was never supposed to happened. It does changed everything. From the image i
have managed for over 3 years has been changed. The friends i have known and
gained...i think i lost them now. Maybe not all of them ... but some of them.
It's a matter of mis communication and mis interpretation. It really made me
feel bad and sick the whole day yesterday and until today. I am still carrying
the pain and weight of what had happened last day. If i could just turned back
the hands of time, maybe i should have not do some things that would make my
life like this. I am so afraid to loose my friends, those memories they have
given me and we have shared. But maybe this is it...the time has come for me to
change my life into something that i have been thinking for along time now.
Maybe it's true that things do come when they are really meant to... And God
gave me this kind of situation to think, decide and choose. Whether to stay or
not. To change my life or stick with this for life. To concentrate my mind and
heart with things and people i should or with this people who i consider my
friends...Real friends...yet judge me unlawfully. I can't blame them but at
least they should have tried to know the truth. I don't wan't to loose my friends here that i have
had for years...i love them all but i guess ... i have to move on. I want to
thank all of the people who treat me and consider me as their friends. For letting
me in to their lives. For all the memories. For all the knowledge and
experience you have given and shared into my life. Thanx....
Original date posted : September 14, 2006
